Its been a long time I know. I just seem to fall short of words whenever I sit down to write. Lately I have been living a life of uncertainty. I have no clue as to where I am heading. I guess Im just preparing myself to accept whatever comes my way!!
Why is it that you feel so left out even when you are in a crowd..You have a routine, that you once enjoyed, but now it seems all that is left of life is following something you do not want to.
Well, I am a working girl now, and honestly a dedicated one. When I first joined the company, (i work for PUMA sports btw), I was in a place which was a complete new area for me. I never knew if I could make it even for a few months, well I sure did and I am super pleased about that.
Although, this is something I always wanted, an independent life, lots of friends, shopping, office treats..I seem to have a lost a lot on the way here.
Why is it that you feel so left out even when you are in a crowd..You have a routine, that you once enjoyed, but now it seems all that is left of life is following something you do not want to.
Well, I am a working girl now, and honestly a dedicated one. When I first joined the company, (i work for PUMA sports btw), I was in a place which was a complete new area for me. I never knew if I could make it even for a few months, well I sure did and I am super pleased about that.
Although, this is something I always wanted, an independent life, lots of friends, shopping, office treats..I seem to have a lost a lot on the way here.
- A good amount of people who spoke a lot about being good friends, hanging out because we are in the same city, seem to have fizzed out. I guess those were people who could just talk.
- A lot of sleep, well when you have so much on your mind, sleep is obviously the last thing you can think about.
- A lot of family fun..stuff happening without me being there, so NOT happening!! :-(
- Alcohol..LOL..no one for company.. ;-(
- College fun!! I miss a lot of college and a lot more of the people I cant meet!! Lectures, shouting, screaming, fighting, bitching, notes..exams..results..fests..street plays..drama..masti!!
- Hostel Fun..Mid night maggis are not fun anymore..its just something I have to do, because, well I am hungry at 12.. :-P..coffee..is something that is a break from work at office..
- Freedom..to wake up when I want to..to go out..have tea..just the regular stuff, a regular girl should be doing..I am just 22!!! Please gimme a break!!
- Shopping..Well mostly due to lack of a female company, I have resorted to online shopping, which was fun in the beginning but not anymore..:-(
I guess it is a part of life..you lose out on relationships, people and stuff that was never meant to be yours. Though I miss all those times, somewhere deep within me, it feels nice to realize what was true and what was not!! I wish to relive some of the days, over and over again..and some, well they should have never been there in the first place, so good that they are gone!!
So thats just me..living a life that was not meant to be..or maybe, this was the way it was to be..
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