Turning 30!

Today I turn 30.
It feels so weird to even acknowledge the fact that a third of my life is over because deep down, I still feel like a child!  

I think its a tough age for sure, and the fact that life is on a timeline and we cant control everything (ageing, being the ultimate out of control situation) has put me on an edge!

I feel a little more "grown" but definitely not older, despite having checked a few boxes out of the many I'd hoped to check. Mostly, I still feel like a kid trying really hard at being an adult and now that I'm a parent, I try a wee bit more.

I guess I'm more aware of my impulses (although I hardly do anything to control them) - like when I'm cranky or about to say something rude but prefer to stay quiet or walk away. Or when I'm thinking about a gazillion things but really all I need to do is let go. Or when I'm all senti but in reality just need a vent out. 

With age, I've definitely become more confident when it comes to my appearance, career and other priorities in general (like spending money on the right things and not things that "look" right!)

It doesn’t mean I’m perfect; it just means I’ve lived with myself long enough to know when I’m about ready to take action in a certain way. I also try and not be quick to judge although I love the occasional gossip sessions! 

I've begun to own my mistakes and admit what I don't know. Suprisingly, it just makes life so much more simpler and conversations become easier because its OK to not know everything and it just lets you learn something new!

I've also realised that I need to let go of my past, forgive people, reconnect with old-lost friends because life is not permanent and there's no point living, if you are full of regrets! It doesn't take long to realize how quickly things can go in a different direction than anticipated which makes it imperative to embrace change and make the most of the one life we have.

So here's wishing me a Happy 30! Life, bring it on!!